Music's Impact on Me, By Cece Sarah

Music’s Impact on Me

By Cece Sarah

I remember a time when I went to a small group concert to meet an amazing jazz player named Victor Goines, who’s collaborated with many famous stars like Ray Charles, B.B. King and other legends that changed people’s life and perspectives on music.

It all started halfway through the show, Goines asked if anyone would like to volunteer to sing and express themselves. Knowing myself, I would never step out my comfort zone, nor even try to volunteer, even though deep inside I really wanted to. But on that day it was different. When I looked around no one had volunteered, and in the blink of an eye, I looked up, and my hand was reaching for the sky. He told me to stand up in front of everyone, so I did. Something whispered in my ears to runway, but it was too late. Everyone's eyes were on me. My heart was beating so fast, it felt as if it was pounding out of my chest. The jazz player put his soft, warm hands on my shoulders, which somewhat eased the pounding of my heart, and gave me instructions on what to do. He told me to sing “The Blues Will Never Die” with the melody and tempo the musicians were playing. I took deep breath.

As soon as I sung my first note, a feeling of relaxation fell from the top of my head down to the tips of my feet and I began to sing my heart out. It was like that moment was the last chance I would ever get to sing with just those five words. After I sang, I felt strong, I had a burning confidence in me and felt like a conqueror. Victor Goines said that I had added something unique, something that shows who I am to my performance. It was then when I realized how music shaped who I was as a person.

Music has made me feel apart of something. When I was young, I remember being alone and never having friends. It was difficult for me to talk to others or to participate in a group. I don’t remember a time where I was the leader of something or took part in anything significant. One day during the summer going into the 4th-grade year, a group of girls were having a sleepover for a week and they invited me. I went to the sleepover and I felt isolated and alone. It was like I was on a desert island waiting for someone to rescue me from my loneliness and desire to speak with others.

On the third day of the sleepover, I was singing to myself in a corner in the living room while everyone was outside playing games. Typical me. I closed my eyes while I sang the notes, and I felt the words of the song seep through me. I sang with my heart, as I thought no one was listening. When I opened my eyes, I jumped. I hadn't noticed the group of girls came back inside. They were all looking at me. One girl looked at me and said “Keep singing,” and everyone else agreed. It took a minute to tackle the shy part of me that wanted to hide my voice. After that, I just sang. The verses passed, then they all sang the fun chorus with me. We were all laughing and smiling and singing with all our hearts. At that moment the feeling of loneliness vanished away all because of the music that was in my heart. This is how music can bring smiles to my friends faces and bring us together.

A few days passed, and the girls wanted to form a group, and make me the leader. I led what turned into a small choir and it showed me how to be a good leader. It also taught me how to be unified. We sang and filled other people's hearts with beautiful sound, and gave fulfillment to their souls.

Not only has music made me feel, but it has built up my confidence. When I was young, I always wanted to learn how to play an instrument and the first instrument I picked up was the clarinet. I thought I wasn’t capable of playing the clarinet. It was a huge challenge for me to learn, especially since it was my first time playing an instrument. I used to watch videos of people playing well, while my sorrow at my supposed weak musicianship would increase. I had been playing for months and I wasn’t accomplishing anything. I wanted to give up, but I watched the videos of other people playing and standing tall and I told myself, “I will play like that one day.” Weeks went by, that felt like years, and I learned how to read music, know what fingering to play on the clarinet, and be able to play quickly and precisely without hesitation. I am not perfect at playing the clarinet now, but I learned from the experience that anything you put your mind to you can do it. Music helped me boost my confidence. If I can learn the whole new language of music, I can face any obstacles that come and block my way.

Music has made me see music and life differently. I learned how music is not just about hearing a song or melody, but how it affects people’s day to day life. The way that music brings people together is fascinating to me;  no matter who you are or what your background is, it can still bring you together with other people. I have always heard that music is a language and as the years go by I begin to understand that even more. It’s just another way of communicating. Music causes you to laugh, smile, be sad, or even angry--it changes your mood. Sometimes, as much as you want to fight it, music improves your mood. It’s also interesting how it brings people together no matter what you are or where you came from. Music brings people together in ways that are unexplainable and to me that’s a treasure within itself.

Music has been a huge part of my life and has not only guide me but showed me things from a different perspective and grasp the world differently. The way music works wonders is fascinating thing, and the question always pops in my head what would the world be like without music. What would the world be like without the motivation it brings, the happiness, the encouragement, the relaxation, and many other things that music has given to us. I don’t think I would survive without it.

One last  thing it showed me was teamwork. Playing music in the band has taught me a lot. From what cooperation is to continually move forward and don’t stop just like you wouldn’t stop in the middle of traffic if you drop your french fries to get it you will keep going. It also showed that everyone is essential no matter what part of the team you're on or in your daily life “I’m important.”Helped me to feel and be apart of something especially when playing an instrument. I play an instrument for band and it has taught me what teamwork is on another level. I learned how when I play my part and everyone does the same, good things happen. Everyone sounds united and together beautiful tones, melody, is produce and music is being made.

The question that always pops in my head is what would the world be like without music. Without the motivation it brings, the happiness, the encouragement, relaxation and many other things that music has given to us. I don’t think I would make it without it. I can’t even go a day without listening to music so what it would be like if it was a lifetime?  

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